Saturday, November 24, 2012
Nearly fell asleep at 6:30 because I was sitting in bed drawing pokemon for this thing I said I would do. Which is to eventually draw all of the original pokemon. It brings back memories I have of playing the games and just powering through it on the brute force of my over leveled pokemon. Things have gotten way more complex, barries and day/night cycles. Its all too involved for me.
I was talking with a friend this morning and I basically realized that before I played world of warcraft I use to read a TON and then trying to go to school, work and play with friends on the internet took up all my time for that. So now that I don't have the game anymore (I got bored with it after...6 or 7 years) and I have to basically retrain myself to do things like read books when I'm bored. Books, it seems, are an important part to my creative process. It is my way of refilling the well of life. I just never started reading again.
I need to work on gently heading towards self employment for things, at least as a means to make more money so I can pay down debts. They are the thing keeping me from...well having a life. Not that I don't have one, but I can't do many of the things I would like to because I simply don't have any extra money AND I get paid pretty well, so its just the debt sucking the life out of my funds.
Its a long term problem that needs a small steps solution. I am trying to take the first step by simply drawing more. The second step will probably involve the library rather heavily. But for now its finally late enough to go to sleep without worrying about waking up at 3am because my sleep cycle is done and now I'm UP!