doodle

I don't know, just doodling.

wolfie?

he wants to be nice and dance.

some new character is forming, and I don't know if its a variance on Jackie or if its something else.

crochet e?

I'm not sure how to spell it. But I mean the game with the little wire arches and the mallets that you use to hit a ball to a stick...or something. I never played for real myself.

this is suppose to be Nicholas standing in the middle, with his brothers laying in the hammock and sitting next to it waiting their turn. In the back is a little one room cottage type thing that is full of tons of books and a bed of some sorts. Though most often nicholas ends up sleeping in the hammock outside.

jump

words

I feel very, detached from art. I talk about how I like to make things but when I go to do it I feel lost. I don't want to complete anything, I know everything in the world that I don't want to do.

What I want is to draw really simple things, and make really simple things. But this seems almost like I'm cheating myself. Because I can draw better than that, so I should. But I don't want to. I can create amazing shapes, but I don't want to.

I want to draw things with noodle arms, and for some reason little skulls. It makes people upset or uncomfortable the skulls. I've made four little clay people with skull faces so far and they are creepy, but happy to see me and I like them.

Just tried to take pictures of two of them, but I don't really feel like editing the photos right now.

I feel like I'm not doing what people expect of me. I'm not doing what I expected of me. I thought I would get done with school and feel like making a million things all over the place. But now when I start making something I am more likely to have no ideas or just feel very tired.

tired and sad.

I was doing better when my computer wasn't working, as much as I hate to admit that.

nicholas has 8 arms/legs. four are "hidden" I have a difficult time drawing them the way I want.