doodles from recently

the other question...why don't I just look up a pattern and not have to do all the figuring myself? because I love figuring things out, its so frustrating, but satisfying.

adorable guy

this guy had these headphones on, and he looked adorable while he read over something on his laptop. I was across the room and trying to scrawl bits I liked before I was seen, or my meeting started. He was drinking straight out of one of those big thermos things where you normally pour yourself cups of coffee from. Very cleanly dressed, can’t really tell from the scrawl I drew in.

When I do things like this it always feels like I’m “doing it wrong” or that what I make is not valid because I don’t enjoy doing things in the way so many other people seem to. I don’t even know if that actually sums up how I felt doing this. It felt wrong, like I was ruining something by taking the time to draw it instead of just observing. I feel similarly about photos, and rarely ever take them, as people who have been on vacation with me will note.

Lots of sketchy things today apparently. Don't want to go to work tomorrow I feel like I don't have time for this on work days. Need to remember to bring my sketch book places.

first thingy of 2013

just smash "paint" down. that's all I have to remember. its just like lines, I just have to use a bigger brush.
I have to go to bed soon though :c

happy new year

Probably the last one for the year. Reading more = more art. so that's what I'll be doing in 2013

Pincombie

Pincombie

Pincombie,
my friend.
The End.
For I don't know,
what to do.
Find what you love.

Pincombie,
my friend.
It's nothing I want,
than to be left,
to wander.
Yet be fed and housed.

Pincombie,
my friend,
is a word I made up,
just because.


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When you ask for words they find you.
When you ask for pictures, they find you too.

There I sketched things.

Nearly fell asleep at 6:30 because I was sitting in bed drawing pokemon for this thing I said I would do. Which is to eventually draw all of the original pokemon. It brings back memories I have of playing the games and just powering through it on the brute force of my over leveled pokemon. Things have gotten way more complex, barries and day/night cycles. Its all too involved for me.

I was talking with a friend this morning and I basically realized that before I played world of warcraft I use to read a TON and then trying to go to school, work and play with friends on the internet took up all my time for that. So now that I don't have the game anymore (I got bored with it after...6 or 7 years) and I have to basically retrain myself to do things like read books when I'm bored. Books, it seems, are an important part to my creative process. It is my way of refilling the well of life. I just never started reading again.

I need to work on gently heading towards self employment for things, at least as a means to make more money so I can pay down debts. They are the thing keeping me from...well having a life. Not that I don't have one, but I can't do many of the things I would like to because I simply don't have any extra money AND I get paid pretty well, so its just the debt sucking the life out of my funds.

Its a long term problem that needs a small steps solution. I am trying to take the first step by simply drawing more. The second step will probably involve the library rather heavily. But for now its finally late enough to go to sleep without worrying about waking up at 3am because my sleep cycle is done and now I'm UP!

The Danbird

So there is this guy I like at work, but I really don't think anything will ever happen. He did provide some awesome character material though. I'm sure it will be a really awkward moment if I ever blurt out "you're a rooster" but oh well, I haven't died of shame yet.

The character though is less like a rooster and more like a cross between a plague doctor and a vulture. 

I say the vulture because when I was painting this (acrylic on watercolor paper) the "skin" came out all red, but I imagine it being like having been burned accept soft. Contradictions abound! I don't know how I feel about the little head doodles he has going on. I much prefer the "spike" style I drew in another picture. [I imagine him setting little fires all over the place and then being contented or gleeful as they slowly encompass everything]

that chain thing, always always draw it on the wrong side without even thinking. Maybe...now I'm not so sure.

So raging hormones aside, that's what I've been up to. Everyone needs to go home and stop looking hot or cute or whatever else it is I'm attracted to. I have things I need to be doing and moping about boys is not one of them! I want to see where I can get with the dragon in the top picture. I like that it has a head similar to a pterosaur. 

I'm an Orca!

Like a Rooster

Have a words/poem thing...

Shy people running around in the dark.
If no one moves you won't accidentally run into anyone else.

I was playing paints

Dudely sketches

"Lets have a jumping on the bed party!" "What? Why would we do that?"

Guys are weird, but mostly because I don't look at them for drawing purposes...

also, just how many colors can my scanner make pencils come out?

This, could have some out better. My pen settings on my tablet are currently awesome for sketching with, but super sad when I want more control. I like doing these by hand more anyhow. Some day biscuits will show up here too.

Might be Alone Forever...

I feel a bit better about this now, but its still a hard thing because this is where I was at emotionally in high school, and that was not fun times. This new chisel tip pen I got is pretty awesome though.
[also the 'computer' says Social Butterfly Media, like social butterfly and social media all in one go. I am so clever :B ]

sketchy bits

The lady in the coat I walked behind out of work. That was when I decided that "work" heels look kind of goony and I don't like them. I also had been bombarded with 50s style things and so I made the lady in the tiny shoes.

then I wrote a letter because I got one in the mail! Its pretty awesome getting letters in the mail :D

Sketches

I changed the settings on my tablet and now it works much more like a really fluid pen. Its AWESOME!

I also drove my car until it was completely out of gas today. That light that comes on really is a warning not just a suggestion. I was a mile from my house and my brother came with a gas can and helped me out. Then I went and paid for a full tank of gas.

I really wish I knew her name. She is paired with the twins, and I know her animal is a deer, but I don't really know what it is. Something keeps saying Melody, but that seems not quite right. I like the letter, but I just don't know.

Pretty pleased with the sheer fabric bits though. They came out much better than I thought I was doing. So that is a total accident yay!

[Cross-posted to tumblr]

Good Morning!

I don't even have a tie on my bathrobe. Only mine is plaid blue and white. Zaro will club you to death with that mug though. Blue is kind of too cheery for her morning coffee, it should have been white, with lots of stains. I imagine she doesn't let anyone really wash it. That nice buildup of coffee residue...mmm?

[Cross-posted to tumblr]

Cat Lady

This girl showed up again, apparently she has a cat. If this were my cat she would get bitten and then the cat would run away. If you want to hug something pick a dog. If you want to be friends with a bitch who likes to cuddle (but only on her own terms) then hug a cat.

In truth I'm pretty sure that my dad and brother let her bite them in play, and she doesn't know that isn't whats happening. Not so much story about the art, more about the family cat. Oh well!

[Cross-posted to tumblr]
[for sale on etsy]

Hey There & Bean Cakes

I drew this because my phone broke and I got a different one. Its not super awesome, even though everyone asks if its a blackberry all the time. Its not. But I think I'll like it anyhow.

These I could eat always. If I had access to them all the time I would probably make myself ill. They are a little like a pancake in flavor and have sweetened red bean paste in the middle. I don't know why they're often shaped like fish. I've been seeing lots of them as just round pancake looking things though. The fish are just fancy?

[Cross-posted to tumblr]
[for sale on etsy]