doodles from recently

the other question...why don't I just look up a pattern and not have to do all the figuring myself? because I love figuring things out, its so frustrating, but satisfying.

adorable guy

this guy had these headphones on, and he looked adorable while he read over something on his laptop. I was across the room and trying to scrawl bits I liked before I was seen, or my meeting started. He was drinking straight out of one of those big thermos things where you normally pour yourself cups of coffee from. Very cleanly dressed, can’t really tell from the scrawl I drew in.

When I do things like this it always feels like I’m “doing it wrong” or that what I make is not valid because I don’t enjoy doing things in the way so many other people seem to. I don’t even know if that actually sums up how I felt doing this. It felt wrong, like I was ruining something by taking the time to draw it instead of just observing. I feel similarly about photos, and rarely ever take them, as people who have been on vacation with me will note.

Lots of sketchy things today apparently. Don't want to go to work tomorrow I feel like I don't have time for this on work days. Need to remember to bring my sketch book places.

first thingy of 2013

just smash "paint" down. that's all I have to remember. its just like lines, I just have to use a bigger brush.
I have to go to bed soon though :c

happy new year

Probably the last one for the year. Reading more = more art. so that's what I'll be doing in 2013

Pincombie

Pincombie

Pincombie,
my friend.
The End.
For I don't know,
what to do.
Find what you love.

Pincombie,
my friend.
It's nothing I want,
than to be left,
to wander.
Yet be fed and housed.

Pincombie,
my friend,
is a word I made up,
just because.


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When you ask for words they find you.
When you ask for pictures, they find you too.

There I sketched things.

Nearly fell asleep at 6:30 because I was sitting in bed drawing pokemon for this thing I said I would do. Which is to eventually draw all of the original pokemon. It brings back memories I have of playing the games and just powering through it on the brute force of my over leveled pokemon. Things have gotten way more complex, barries and day/night cycles. Its all too involved for me.

I was talking with a friend this morning and I basically realized that before I played world of warcraft I use to read a TON and then trying to go to school, work and play with friends on the internet took up all my time for that. So now that I don't have the game anymore (I got bored with it after...6 or 7 years) and I have to basically retrain myself to do things like read books when I'm bored. Books, it seems, are an important part to my creative process. It is my way of refilling the well of life. I just never started reading again.

I need to work on gently heading towards self employment for things, at least as a means to make more money so I can pay down debts. They are the thing keeping me from...well having a life. Not that I don't have one, but I can't do many of the things I would like to because I simply don't have any extra money AND I get paid pretty well, so its just the debt sucking the life out of my funds.

Its a long term problem that needs a small steps solution. I am trying to take the first step by simply drawing more. The second step will probably involve the library rather heavily. But for now its finally late enough to go to sleep without worrying about waking up at 3am because my sleep cycle is done and now I'm UP!

The Danbird

So there is this guy I like at work, but I really don't think anything will ever happen. He did provide some awesome character material though. I'm sure it will be a really awkward moment if I ever blurt out "you're a rooster" but oh well, I haven't died of shame yet.

The character though is less like a rooster and more like a cross between a plague doctor and a vulture. 

I say the vulture because when I was painting this (acrylic on watercolor paper) the "skin" came out all red, but I imagine it being like having been burned accept soft. Contradictions abound! I don't know how I feel about the little head doodles he has going on. I much prefer the "spike" style I drew in another picture. [I imagine him setting little fires all over the place and then being contented or gleeful as they slowly encompass everything]

that chain thing, always always draw it on the wrong side without even thinking. Maybe...now I'm not so sure.

So raging hormones aside, that's what I've been up to. Everyone needs to go home and stop looking hot or cute or whatever else it is I'm attracted to. I have things I need to be doing and moping about boys is not one of them! I want to see where I can get with the dragon in the top picture. I like that it has a head similar to a pterosaur.